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Thursday, June 24, 2010


And so, it has been determined....we are going Jeep shopping when we get home.  

Love and a good turn radius, H.  

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

A Very Small Glimpse of California

     On the drive down Sunset, admiring all the vintage buildings and signs and eating donuts from Randy's, we both agreed that we could see ourselves living here.  

                                        But then we remembered that These Girls wouldn't care much for apartment living so, alas, we're staying put as Buckeyes ............(and enthusiastically planning our next visit West).  

                                             Love, H & T. 

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Yes Yes Hello

It is incredibly hot.  Tomorrow, I am planning on being out the door by 7am to work in the garden.  Try as I may, noon and nearing 90 degrees just won't cut it.  

The house has a strange feel to it tonight...almost like it knows that someday we are leaving.  I am an interesting mix of happy and sad.  

I like being home.  

So another bath it shall be.  

Love, H.  (and apparently N.)

Monday, June 14, 2010

Les Papillons

     Last Wednesday, Tim and I went to The Butterfly Show at Krohn Conservatory.  It was lovely.  We then had a spontaneous adventure which led us to Andy's Mediterranean Grille in Walnut Hills.  We love living here and vowed to discover more and more of this great city as soon as (and as much as) humanly possible.  

     Because I secretly fear that Bad Guys are going to break into my house while we are gone (with no adorable dogs wild beasts to protect it), I am going to spare you the details about our upcoming adventure which will keep us from our house for several consecutive days....but I will tell you that someday, we are leaving.  I am getting anxious and I'm not sure why.  Not so much anxious as...eager?  The next few weeks will bring about a lot of (temporary) change, and change is stressful- even the good kind of change.  

There is lots and lots to do.  All in due time.  

La vie est belle.  

Love and better-French-next time, 

Friday, June 11, 2010

Rockstars and TIGERS and ants, oh my!


     I found this picture (take in January), and it made me laugh.  Even though I have the summer off, I don't have a lot of time to write just as of yet.  I am surprised by how BUSY these first few "free" days seem to be...but I like it.  I love the time off, but I NEED structure.  I am like one of those tiny, well-organized ants.  I need a schedule to keep me from constantly living like a rockstar....3am bedtimes and horrible eating habits...sleeping until noon and spending my days, holed up inside with the curtains blocking out the gorgeous sunlight, eating gummy worms for breakfast.

     I'm being serious.  It sounds fantastic, but trust me, after 10 weeks, it gets old and my body pays the price.  So, it has taken me 6 years or so, but I have finally learned that I need consider gathering all the pieces that are scattered before me and try to rearrange them into some kind of schedule. I like spontaneity. I do.  But I need my anchors:  The Gym. Lunch. Cleaning. Writing. Etc.  

 My friend James put it best, "I never know what to do with my free days. So, normally, I do nothing, and then wish i'd done everything."


Wish me luck.

My best to you.  Love, H.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Fireworks, Beasts & Baseball


     Every year, towards the end of May, we venture down to The Great American Ballpark to watch The Reds and take in one of the free fireworks shows that are scheduled after specific games.  

     This tradition is always very special to me because it is the first 'outing' we took as a family after my accident.  For the longest time, I couldn't figure out how to describe what it was we were doing during that game.  What were we so desperately trying to do?  We were not trying, necessarily, to fill in the spaces because I think what happened actually LEFT more behind than it took.  I will not say we were "trying to find a new normal" because that sounds too much like Dr. Phil, and as much as I like Dr. Phil, it still just doesn't seem fitting.  

     So, for a long time, I didn't know exactly what it was we were doing.  We were healing, but we were also doing something else.  


     I started reading a fantastic new book called A Three Dog Life by Abigail Thomas.  Abigail and her husband had been living in New York City and married for 13 years when her husband suffered a traumatic brain injury after being hit by a car while chasing after their beagle.  It changes him forever- hallucinations, mood swings, severe memory loss.  Eventually, she buys a house in the country (after acquiring two more dogs), and he moves to a nearby facility that specializes in helping patients who live with TBI.  This book is about her life after the accident.  

     She is a beautiful writer.  In the beginning of her memoir, she says that she and her family spent a lot of time "trying to tame what happened" and I thought, 

"Yes.  That's exactly it."  

The Reds Game.  That is what we were doing- that is what we ARE doing.  We are trying to tame what happened.  

     I often tell people that Scarlett is part cocker, part jack russell and part (coyote/wild beast/orangutang or whatever animal happens to strike my fancy that day).  There is a rather large part of her heart that is still, in a sense, wild.  The other day, I found her on the coffee table- all four paws firmly planted, watching a mayfly; a lioness ready to attack.  

     I don't particularly care for crossing streets.  I don't like it.  I despise how people in movies never seem to watch where they're going.  While watching movies, I often fear that people are going to suddenly be struck as part of the plot line (think the opening scene of Meet Joe Black), even during romantic comedies.  I shout in my head, "Watch out, Kate Hudson! Watch out!"  

See.  Even though, after 5 years, I am now able to approach what happened with an outstretched hand, even though I am now able to occasionally scratch behind it's ears...

part of what happened is still wild.  

It took about 4 years to get the insurance settlement money.  I am very proud to say that not a penny of it went towards shoes, much to my dismay.  For the most part, we tried to be smart with it.  A down payment on a house.  An IRA.  Student loans.  
     But this upcoming trip?  This trip is for me.  This trip is for us.  The last little bit of what we had squirreled away (separate from our normal 'real life' savings account, of course)  is what we are using to fund the majority of this vacation.  I am hoping it will bring some more closure.  

     I hope and pray that once I am able to stand next to the Bixby Canyon Bridge off the coast of California and nuzzle my husband, this thing that happened will finally roll over and let me scratch it's belly.  

We shall see.