Friday, October 1, 2010

Secrets Revealed

    I should probably tell you that Tim has volunteered to teach a Sunday School Class for 18-25 year olds.  Lately, we've been talking about how at the end of the day (ok, at the end of our lives) we are judged according to how we lead the other people God puts in our paths.  It terrifies me to think we will be held accountable for the way these college kiddos turn out (to a certain extent).          


     Basically, when you are under that kind of pressure, you start to take a serious look at your life.  You start wondering how in the world you can get all your crooked little ducks in a row, right?  


     With that being said,  you already know that sometimes, I am a terrible person.  In more ways than one.  Well, here is more proof of terribleness. Sometimes, it feels like I encounter other girls who appear to be a "me-upgrade."  Do you ever feel like that?  (Please say yes).  Like if you find a vintage coach wallet at a thrift store, there is a girl out there who not only finds the wallet, she also finds the matching handbag.  And it just stinks.  And what's worse is that these girls are perfectly nice people.  Nice girls.  Friendly girls. Sweethearts.  So, it's not like you can say, "Well, she may have the handbag, but at least I'm not a jerkface."  


     So, then came the glumps.  That's right.  I've been feeling a bit glumpy lately.  One morning, the only prayer I could muster was, "Lord, I think I've gone crazy."  


       It is funny/interesting/sad how you can enjoy something so much that it takes away from other aspects of your life.  I love blogging.  I love reading blogs.  I love staying connected through Facebook, but honestly- I'm not always good at finding the balance.  It has been several days since I've taken Scarlett out on the bike- and we love going out on the bike.  It has been weeks since I've finished a book or made a new craft.  And I LOVE books and crafts.  Weeks.  Meh.  

     And after my "I've gone crazy" prayer, He said, "Maybe you should go a week without the internet."  


     To which I replied, "You want me to spend my FAIR BREAK, at home ALONE with no internet?"  


     "You heard me." 


     So, that's what I did...or am doing.  I don't really know what giving up the internet has to do with feeling glumpy or comparing myself to the "cool" girls, but I'm willing to give it a shot nonetheless, and I hope I can find some answers along the way.  


      So, you see-for the past 5 days or so, the posts that have shown up were scheduled- written several days before they actually showed up (pretty cool, huh?).  I can't really tell you how it's going or what I've learned because, honestly, I typed this up the day before my "fast."  


Anyway...


Are you feeling glumpy lately?  What's the plan?  


See you tomorrow (Saturday, Oct. 2nd)*


Love and no more glumps, 
H. 


*I typed this one roughly a week ago, and it feels like time-travel.  


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3 comments:

Mrs. Werginz said...

WOW! I don't know how to plan for the blogs to post at different times! Maybe God wanted you to take a a break and enjoy time with your husband. I bet he will be super busy once his SS class starts. Karl and I taught Sunday School from August 09 til August of this year and it is a HUGE committment. We only taught 3 year olds so y'all will have a bigger impact but it was still an eye opener. Way to go Mr. Young. I hope you are having a fabulous fall break bloggy friend!!

carmen @ life blessons said...

Oh you crack me up. (Well the time travel part, at least!). I have to schedule most of my posts because I usually only get creative in spurts; writing a few posts one day and none for another week or so. Always good to have something in the back pocket for those times.

Regardless, I am PROUD of you, Holly! It can be oh-so hard to obey when we feel the Lord prompting us. But not you :) Here's a verse I recently memorized: "This is love for God: to obey his commands. And his commands are not burdensome." 1 John 5:3 It's got you written all over it! Hoorah! (And even if you don't "learn" anything, sometimes that doesn't matter near as much as your obedience does!)

Heather said...

"Me-upgrades"? I have those moments too. And they are no fun. Good for you to be able to give up internet for a week. I don't know if I could do it.